I used to feel something missing in my life, something that I couldn't really figure out until recently. At the end of the day, I was not able to sleep happily due to this missing something. Days are seeming to be normal these days. And now I am thinking what has changed over the past 10 days. I have become more independent. I gave a long break to the cook in our house. The maid who otherwise comes twice daily is hardly coming once in a day. My mother in law is on a vacation and I have the entire kitchen and a whole bunch of responsibilities to handle, completely on my own. I have a two year old to occasionally irritate me exactly when peace is one thing I need the most. I thought patience is something that cannot be learnt. It has to be within us. But I think I am getting well trained in being patient. I am not shouting at her as often as I used to. Additionally I am working in the office for 4 hours a day, though not contributing anything much yet, but having my time away from home for those few hours a day experiencing the life of a semi working mom.
Satisfaction is something that has been added into my life. I am satisfied with my performance as of now. I am happy being busy. Busy life has become a part of my life for a very long time that it can be said to be an integral part of myself. What have I been missing all this while? I have been missing the responsibilities that I love, control over things managing time and resources, using some brain to solve issues if any, making my presence felt (missed it the most), being independent, being active (become very lazy these days) and so on.. I will close this by recollecting what my physics sir in +2 Mr. Lakshmana Rao said, "If u don't believe the life u live in, then u have to live the life u believe in".
